Get at the blog!: May 2008

Movement In Light

Human Movement in Light from Jordan Clarke on Vimeo.

You don't need a dollar, you don't need a dime.

Sometimes I feel like everyone is just a walking profile, URL, or bit of html code. Everyone has a website, a blog, or whatever. I'm not complaining. I'm not sure if this is a good or bad thing. I feel like all this technology is making it harder for people to deal with each other on a personal one to one level. That's kind of weird when you think about it. I'm probably the most guilty since I update my myspace profile at least once a week. If someone didn't know me all they'd have to do is lurk my myspace to get a pretty good general idea of who I am. Maybe I should make my profile more vague. Would that encourage anyone to actually contact me and get to know me?

Anyway...

Does anyone else in my peer group ever just feel like a confused twenty-something? Where is my life manual!? Fuck! That being said, I've been thinking about moving lately. It needs to happen. I feel like I can't progress if I stay in Richmond. I also feel like if I was really going to progress, it would just happen naturally no matter where I was. But I do feel like I have plateaued a bit. But maybe that's an illusion too.

I've been thinking about my past relationships a lot lately. I can count at least 4 really amazing girls that I just kind of threw away for lack of a better term. Oh wait 5 now, I just remembered someone else. I usually just chalk it up to something like 'I'm too young to be in a relationship', or 'I'm just not ready to settle down'. Some generic and stereotypically male response to anything resembling a commitment.

The point of this post is that coupled with me realizing I've fucked up every significant relationship since high school, Stephanie contacted me yesterday.

Stephanie is a girl I met some years back, at the height of my 'too young to settle down' phase. We had a bit of a falling out about a month ago due to the fact that I didn't want to do anything to prove that I actually cared about her and wanted her in my life. After all, moving to Boston to be with her is silly right? What if it doesn't work out? I can't move to Boston, it's cold there in the winter. My family is here. I have a really good job here. Well if it doesn't work, I'll be back here sitting on my ass in Richmond casually dating whoever just like now. Yes it's cold there in the winter, but that's what North Face's are for right? Let's be honest, my family isn't the most close knit, we really only get together once a year with a few sporadic visits in between. I love my job, but working a 100% commission job isn't the best idea in an economic recession. I'm currently making less than half of what I made at this point last year, oh except now I have a new car and $200 more in rent to pay per month. Ouch!

I think my next step in life is to find someone to take my place in my amazing loft, pack up my shit, man up and move to Boston. Or I could always stay here, let Stephanie get tired of my shit (yet again), get over me (yet again), start dating someone (yet again), and by this time next year I'll have a sixth name to add to my list of amazing women I let slip away.

I better go buy a North Face huh?

Spread her wings.

There was a car accident outside of my apartment last night. It happened a few minutes after I left. The guy was running from the cops. Unfortunately he died.

You can see my car it's the last car in the row on the right. The guy hit the pole about 150ft away from my car.

A reporter that is a friend's father was on the scene and said that they guy was headed southbound on Hull. Hull is the main road you see running almost horizontally in the shot. South bound is from the left to the right. A little ways off screen to the left are some crucial train tracks and a bump that will throw your car if you're going too fast. I think the guy hit them and got thrown into the pole somehow.

Damnit

Someone died outside of my apt complex tonight.

I don't have many details. My roomate says he was running from the police and ran headlong into a light pole. Apparently he was dead on impact.

Fuck. What a shite way to go out.

Fuck man. Why run from the cops. Just take whatever is coming to you.

That makes me so bummed/depressed/sad.

I was having a great night. I come home to police (state and local) literally surrounding my building and won't let us in. Luckily we live there so they have to.

This poor soul died literally 100ft. from where I park my beloved Isabelle at night.

I will have pics later. For now I am too drunk and too sad about this.

I saw Danielle Holmberg's dad recording footage. Apparently he works for one of the news channels now, instead of the local paper like I am used to seeing him. Good on him.

Ok. Good night. enough drunk ramblings.

And it did, just like it always does.

I got a BlackBerry Curve last week. This is me the day I got it, with my friend Alyssa, you can barely see Rachele in the backseat.

I updated my resume a few days ago. I need another job. Not a replacement, but in addition to what I currently do. Times are hard in the world. This whole "economy going to shit" thing is really starting to affect me.

My roomate is back home for a month and a half. We have already started to do all kinds of ridiculous fun stuff together. Stuff that I can't even begin to speak of.

New tattoo. Monica got the same one.

A full tank of gas. No fun.

Videos.

This is a great advert for Amp energy drink. If are familiar with the term "walk of shame" you will understand this.

This is a video I found on YouTube of my favorite band Converge performing a song by Integrity called Vocal Test. When I was younger I was told that vocal test was just that. A vocal test the singer did during recording to get sound levels right. But it sounded so good they left it on the record. Anyway there aren't any words, just yelling. But it's amazing to hear Converge playing it. Listen to how distinctive Jake's voice sounds.

IHMDJ

My roomate is the singer of a pretty popular metal/hardcore band called Bury Your Dead. He hasn't been home for more than a week since November '07. Kinda sucks because he's my best friend too. So I have no one to chill with really. He's on tour in Europe, he'll be back next weekend. Which will have been a month in Europe. But he's back for a few weeks so we get to do all kinds of ridiculous stuff, and I can't wait. Anyway here's their new video. I think it's an official video. It looks like maybe one that the European booking agent made.

Check them out if you get the chance, and pick up their new CD.

ps- my roomate is the singer.

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I saw Iron Man yesterday. It was really good. I highly recommend it. Loved all the Audi's in it. Especially the R8. I want one so bad.

Also got a pair of all white Vans Eras yesterday. I can't wait to wear them. I'll post some pics of them later. But seriously, do you need pictures of them?

I'm sitting at work now with probably the most negative coworker I work with. Awesome. He always taps his feet on the floor. It's really annoying. It's like he's playing drums in a death metal band, but all he uses is the bass drum. Just constant tapping. It's driving me fucking crazy.

I need to start remembering the stuff he says and writing about it.

Anyway I'm gonna go find something entertaining to do for the next 9 hours.